5 pages letter from May 21st, 1984 by Ted Bundy (x)
I have received your letter from May 1st, I apologize for taking so long to answer it. Thank you for writing to me.
You say that you have written to me on two previous occassions. I’m sorry, but I don’t recall those letters.
In your letter you speculated as to the possible reasons why I didn’t answer your earlier letters. I’d like to comment on your theories.
1. “I’ve many letters from total strangers.” You’ve a point here. I do receive many letters from people I have never known (I agree with you, by the way, that “there are no strangers in the world, only people we haven’t met.”)
The main problem here isn’t so much the time I’d need to answer took me, that problem can be overcome. All I need is the motivation. I made little or no effort to write back to people like yourself, but lately I have been because … well, it’s not easy to say actually. I guess I just feel free to in a way I wasn’t before.
No, the real problem I have in answering you and others who write to me is a straight forward for me: I don’t have the stamps.
People don’t send me stamps or stampered, self- addressed envelopes (note: Here he makes reference on the right where it says:“Let me correct what I just wrote.”) Sometimes people will enclose a stamp or two but they are for the exception.
I’m not being critical, Diane. That’s just the way it is. I can’t send people letters if I don’t have stamps.
So I have to conserve the few stamps I have for people I have known for years, especially my wife and family. Only when I have what can be considered an extra stamp or two now-and-then do I respond to the (illegible) of correspondence I have from other folks.
Believe me, I don’t expect people to send me stamps. I don’t imagine that it occurs to people who write to me that I wouldn’t have just one stamp to use to write them back. But as I’ve explained, there are many letters that each need only one stamp.
And it may also be that people assume (illegible) heard rumors to the effect that I have money, or friends or family with money. I don’t, and (whatsmore), I don’t receive a nickle from many of the books, articles, TV programs, or (illegible) films about Ted Bundy. Nothing. Nada. Zero.
That’s fine, too. I don’t want any of that money and I don’t need it. The fact is I’m broke, and while I can handle that, it also means I can’t afford stamps to go on letters to you. So it goes.
Excuse me, I’ve made too much of the stamp (illegible). It doesn’t bother me actually, it’s just the way it is.
2. “My wife doesn’t allow me to answer letter from other women?”
This is the second theory you propose. Perhaps you were being only half serious on this one. No problem. Of course, if you knew my wife, Carole, you would understand immediately that isn’t the case.
3. “You are too busy to write a lot of just friends letters.”
I’ve already addressed this point, though briefly, earlier on. Time is not a big factor here. Or is lazyness. It can be, though.
I find that I have more than enough to keep my days (illegible) from 5 in the morning to 11 at night. I’m rarely bored. However, contrary to what you assumed, I do not work with legal matters.
Generally, (illegible). I find the law too limiting and doctrinaire the way it goes about separating people. But that is another story.
So while I am being in a relaxed, controlled, and positive way, there is time to write just friends, occasionally, attorneys, the time available is limited and there are many people to write to. It’s also important that I feel inwardly moved to write to a certain person, and I don’t always feel that way. I have to be conscious of my inner flow and that is another story too.
I enjoyed your letter and enjoyed writing to you. Again, excuse me for taking so long.